It's Time to Grow Up!

Have you ever heard the phrases, “You’re acting like a child” or “Act your age, not your shoes size”? I am sure you have. Unfortunately it is not so easy for people to “grow up” when the very adult who is portraying the actions of a child is just that…A child! Somewhere deep inside of that adult is a smaller human form waiting to be healed from whatever traumatic experiences that kept them from growing up.For a long time I never understood my life and why it was so hard for me to gain control of myself. I always wanted things my way. I was very impulsive in EVERYTHING, and I do mean EVERYTHING. I was always swayed by my emotions, always had to retaliate when someone did something to hurt me, and I hated feeling like people were attacking me with criticism. I would get into relationships with people trying to fill a void, and the very thing each person that I have ever dated always said was, “nothing is ever good enough for you.” They were right. There was nothing another human being on this Earth could put in that void to fill it, because it was too deep to heal from the surface. 

That wound started at the age of 5 years old, and I had to be the one to close it. At the age of 28 years old, I finally sat down, looked at myself in the mirror, and told myself something has to be done…it’s time to grow up! I literally looked myself in the eyes and told that little girl who was staring back at me that she had to heal, because she was becoming detrimental to her future. From that point forward, I began to write letters to myself and became my own mentor. Every time I felt that little broken girl begin to show herself, I wrote something to encourage her and empower her. This process has helped me to heal tremendously! The burden of holding the past in to keep from falling apart was too heavy, but writing about it gave me a sense of freedom that was indescribable.

Oftentimes, we are unsure how to release the very things that hold us back, because we feel that it has to be some grand gesture. Initially, all it takes are simple steps to gain healing.In this blog, I am sharing my letters and my experiences in hopes that it will free the broken child inside of you, and allow you to be the best person you can be by healing from your past hurt, pain, and negative experiences. Start from the age of your very first painful experience, and release. I love you, but God loves you most....to be continued.

~Peace and Freedom~